To worry or not to worry

Yes, mornings are definitely rougher for M than days or evenings. And he even asked me today to try and get to the hospital earlier so I an be around to help and support during those times. No love is greater than Jenn the Night Bat readjusting her schedule to be more of a Morning Lark ... or at least a Morning Owl or something. But I'll be working on it for tomorrow and going forth.  ho boy

This morning's worry, as detailed a bit more on Michael's blog, are PVCs  (premature ventricular contractions -  heart arrhythmias). Common post-surgery, and with exertion, or electrolyte imbalance, or tinkering with the heart, or adjusting meds, or just about anything and everything that Michael has had done to him or is going through. So it makes it hard to figure out what's causing and how to treat. Meanwhile his heart beat is not normal and feels "like Ringo Starr is soloing in my chest". I can even feel his pulse in his wrist and feel the beats & bumps, or hops, skips and pauses.  This from someone who can't even find her own bloody pulse in the wrist.

While it's all common, and I've talked to two people with serious medical backgrounds, it's still a concern. And I'm just not sure how much or little to be concerned. Acting cool and together with M -- and overall I pretty much am -- but still kinda worried.  It was these feelings of arrhythmias and fibrillating that M felt last night that had me reluctant to leave him and probably more contemplative and guilt-ridden or whatever it was when I posted late in the evening. But I put my trust in the staff at CC and have to go with that, ride it out. It did help though talking with my aunt who taught in Duke's med school & PA program for years and my uncle who is a PA (physicians' assistant) and who is the ultimate no bullshit, straight shooter.  Also had email conversation with a great buddy from college who is a doc, a hospitalist at Northwestern Memorial in Chicago  (the docs who specially take care of people in hospitals - they don't do other practices, they're based in the hospital).  She gave me tons of great info, things to ask and watch for.  We'll watch and see overnight and tomorrow and talk to more specialists as needed.


Gonna be a late dinner for me, as I'll leave him for the night, head to hotel, and afterward get in some quiet time (not that the hospital is a rockin', slammin' party on Sundays), my nightcap and perhaps one more last post. He wants me around as much as possible (awwwww) and nights or mornings alone are his wobbly periods.  But at same time, I gotta eat and sleep some time. I can't afford to get sick or worn out this early in the recoup and recover time.


Peace 
J